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August 27, 2013
Disposophobia by ~Tyrison details the life of an eccentric and her obsession with an absolutely terrific portrayal of a woman who is lonely underneath all of her memories.
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Disposophobia
She had always kept everything. Ticket stubs, receipts, the torn-off edges of notebook paper. Any doodles or scribbled ideas, and any note afforded her by a friend were kept and saved. Not everything received the honor, but particular things from specific events did. She wanted to keep track of each and every thing she had ever done. She did so, on a corkboard encircling her room from floor to ceiling; each day had its spot, and one could trace her life along the wall with the zigzagging strings of yarn that connected each day.
She didn't often invite others into her room, for fear they might displace something, either by accident or purpose. A fear of forgetting had encircled her heart, and she did this as her blatant struggle to hold on to everything. Thus, apart from the walls, her room was clean and ordered. Her bookshelf was neatly ordered (alphabetically, of course) and each bauble sat proudly in its place. Her clothes were organized by type of clothing, then color, and it was quite a pretty picture, the rainbows contained in her closet.
It was the walls, though, that caught your attention, if you were ever lucky enough to visit her sanctuary. You would probably even find mentions of you, in photos and notes. You might even find a slip of paper noting the day you became friends. It was the kind of thing that shamed you, because you should have been keeping better track of your life, scrapbooking or taking photos all the time, but you never quite managed to do it.
She always caught people taking in as much as they could as they left her room, and she understood, though she disliked it. To them, it was an interesting, almost awe-inspiring quirk that they envied, in a way. She understood also that they didn't really understand. They didn't know about the writing under all the clutter.
They didn't understand that it was all she had.
She had always kept everything. Ticket stubs, receipts, the torn-off edges of notebook paper. Any doodles or scribbled ideas, and any note afforded her by a friend were kept and saved. Not everything received the honor, but particular things from specific events did. She wanted to keep track of each and every thing she had ever done. She did so, on a corkboard encircling her room from floor to ceiling; each day had its spot, and one could trace her life along the wall with the zigzagging strings of yarn that connected each day.
She didn't often invite others into her room, for fear they might displace something, either by accident or purpose. A fear of forgetting had encircled her heart, and she did this as her blatant struggle to hold on to everything. Thus, apart from the walls, her room was clean and ordered. Her bookshelf was neatly ordered (alphabetically, of course) and each bauble sat proudly in its place. Her clothes were organized by type of clothing, then color, and it was quite a pretty picture, the rainbows contained in her closet.
It was the walls, though, that caught your attention, if you were ever lucky enough to visit her sanctuary. You would probably even find mentions of you, in photos and notes. You might even find a slip of paper noting the day you became friends. It was the kind of thing that shamed you, because you should have been keeping better track of your life, scrapbooking or taking photos all the time, but you never quite managed to do it.
She always caught people taking in as much as they could as they left her room, and she understood, though she disliked it. To them, it was an interesting, almost awe-inspiring quirk that they envied, in a way. She understood also that they didn't really understand. They didn't know about the writing under all the clutter.
They didn't understand that it was all she had.
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How to Sleep and Never Wake Up
The year they discovered my best friend, twenty years old and silent under the heap of her wrecked car, I learned one can sleep forever and never wake up.
That year, her sister, only seventeen, ate magic mushrooms and lost her mind and her brother, fourteen, started running and stopped eating and I didn't eat magic mushrooms but lost my mind anyway as everyone watched my skin, too white to be real, disintegrate before their eyes.
That year I flew to Colorado to see an urn surrounded by pointe shoes. It reminded me more of a wastebasket than the last I would see of the girl who shared my soul. Her sister ran naked through the street a few da
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autopsy
her spine was cracked down the middle,
her skin unraveled at the seams.
bloated lungs and an emaciated heart filled her no longer moving chest.
her eyes were still open
and her hands stretching for the last thing she ever saw,
though she'd never reached it.
no one knew the exact cause of death,
except the shadow of a boy who avoided her funeral
like it was a plague.
like she was the plague.
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In Which Middle School is Hell
I can still remember with perfect clarity the day in eighth grade when a boy walked up to me at my locker and said, “Hey cutie.” I was sweaty, having just come from gym class, and I was only at my locker to buy some time before I had to go to math class where the teacher hated me and the numbers didn’t make any sense. But there was a boy standing next to me and he called me cute and I had no idea what to say. As it turned out I didn’t have to say anything because the girl he was with just laughed, a cut off cackle into the oversized purse she was fishing through. I turned back to my locker, not saying a word because I
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They had people. She had books and paper and ink. She promised herself that she was better off, that her things never betrayed her, but she could never quite make herself believe it.
They had people.
(c) 2013 Mary Stokes
August 19th's flash fiction piece.
I did another 'phobia piece. It's actually quite interesting to me to look at all the ones that there are. And they happen to make for interesting pieces. I might make a game of it, looking up different 'phobias. Hmm...
Day 50
Thanks!
EDIT: Thank you so much to for featuring me in August 27, 2013's Daily Deviations! I am overwhelmed and incredibly thankful.
They had people.
(c) 2013 Mary Stokes
August 19th's flash fiction piece.
I did another 'phobia piece. It's actually quite interesting to me to look at all the ones that there are. And they happen to make for interesting pieces. I might make a game of it, looking up different 'phobias. Hmm...
Day 50
Thanks!
EDIT: Thank you so much to for featuring me in August 27, 2013's Daily Deviations! I am overwhelmed and incredibly thankful.
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